Confessions of a Meditation Teacher

On social media, people often present this image of perfection or of having it all together...

But that's definitely not the case for me, and it has never been the case.

When I was a teenager, my parents split up, and those teenage years, when I was navigating a lot of change in my life without unified parental guidance, I was a mess.

I was out of control.
I was drinking.
I was doing drugs.

I was in trouble with the police a lot, and I didn't have a strong sense of self.

I got lost in the drugs and alcohol for a long time, and I felt very disconnected.

I had this real internal conflict between what I was doing and who I wanted to be, and that lasted for years.

It even ended up getting to a breaking point where I actually destroyed a relationship that I had because of my drinking, which is one of the things that I really never wanted to do because I saw that happen with my parents (my dad destroying our family because of his drinking problems).

I actually did that as well in my 20s.

And that was the catalyst for me where I decided that I need to change.

So I went sober for a year, got my shit together, got connected with myself, and became a lot more confident in who I was.

That was a huge turning point.

It allowed me to build a healthy relationship with my now wife.

It helped me to become a father who is present and emotionally grounded for my kids.

And it also gave me the confidence to do work that I enjoy doing, to share my story and help others who are also looking to find that sense of internal authority, calm and emotional stability without relying on addictions, drugs, alcohol, or whatever else.

Now I have a pretty good handle on it, but I still find myself reaching for things outside of myself to help regulate myself.

I still find myself looking for external validation and using that external validation as a source of self-regulation when I know that the best way I can regulate myself is just to find peace within myself and be present within myself, although that can be uncomfortable.

That's still something that I'm working on.

So I just wanted to share this to show you that I'm not perfect.

I don't think anyone is perfect, but when we are intentional about our growth and development, we can create a life that we're actually very proud to be living.

If that's something you're interested in then:

• Check out the Mind Launch Method explainer video here.

Back in my teens and early 20's, I was not in control of my mind.

Over the last 15 years, I've taken it upon myself to learn how to master my mind, control my thoughts and stabilise my emotions.

And in the Mind Launch Method video, I share the 3-step system I've developed to help you:

• Regulate Your Nervous System
• Reprogram Your Subconscious Mind
• Reset Your Identity & Self Image

It explains how to upgrade your internal operating system and create a life with more balance, flow and confidence.

With Optimism,

Josh